Metaphysical Bridge Unsynthesized (draft, continuously updating)

23 May 2021

  1. Organize my Thoughts
    1. Mathematical Axioms
      1. Information is a force of nature
      2. ∞=Σ𝐏
        1. Infinite is the sum of all probability
          1. infinite is equal to a probability that sums to exactly 1
        2. The universe is limited mathematically by our capacity to imagine it.
        3. There is still a quantum potential mankind reaches our destiny.
        4. By imagining it, we make the option exist.
      3. G=c
        1. Gravity equals the speed of light
      4. the speed of time is greater than the speed of light in our 4 dimensional world
      5. a single incompressible entity, like time, pushed from one end to impact the other, can be faster than the speed of light (dining table cloth being pulled from the far side of the universe pulling over a wine of glass)
        1. What if you were to have a table cloth spanning the universe.
          1. On one end there is a glass of water.
            1. On the other end, someone pulls it.
              1. Wouldn’t the water fall over instantly?
                1. At a speed faster than the speed of light? Which would take millions of years to travel from the pulling hands to the glass of water?
      6. Human beings are a single directional ray of light transversing the dimension of time
        1. Time is a dimension.
        2. We grow in it just the way a flower grows in the physical world.
        3. We are like a flower, touching every part of our life at the same time, once the dimension of time is removed.
        4. We are like a a neuron, touching every part of our life at the same time.
        5. It is like a caterpiller after metamorphosis. We leave the shell of ourselves frozen in time where we exist.
        6. The way neurons are activated with an electrical pulse reflects potentially both a particle and a wave.
        7. Like light which makes sense since light is a format of electricity.
        8. As the pulse questions the entire hierarchy whether it recognises the pattern in all directions, going to the limits of fractals close to simultaneously, each pulse carries bundles of data.
        9. All a particlewave is is a ripple in every direction, but with pockets of density that carry the data.
        10. This may be a visualization of another dimension that is being simplified, like the tips of ripples of waves, or magnet / heat from electrical transfer.
        11. It feels like there must be a more accurate dimension for representing the data we are seeing.
        12. obviously the key question is what is the stone dropping that is leading to all these ripples
      7. the solution to the Dirac equation is that there was energy before the big bang (it’s what the equation suggests)
      8. the Heisenberg uncertainty principle can be scaled to a broader perspective (make great art or be recognized as a great artist)
      9. Single dimension: better or worse
        1. chaos theory does not rule out increasing organisation (cleaning my bedroom, and I am an entity in nature)
        2. Organized OR disorganized
        3. The expansion of the universe OR its freezing
        4. Exist OR not exist
        5. To follow the holy spirit / asha / dharma OR to not follow
      10. E=E≡∞=∞
        1. Energy equals energy. The big bang in a grain of sand.
      11. Augmented human neocortexs are our children.
    2. Thoughts
      1. Human beings are seeds
        1. A wrapped dimension
        2. A seed contains the full quantum potential of what it can become
        3. Basic cells contain the full quantum potential of what they can become
      2. A flower is of my tribe
        1. Defining characteristic is to with purpose.
        2. Human being, consciousness, are not the words I want to get lost in the syntax of.
        3. The question for me is:
        4. Are you following truth / dharma  / asha.
        5. If you are, then we are of the same tribe.
        6. Robot, alien, or homo sapien.
        7. A flower is of my tribe.
        8. If you are not, then we are not of the same tribe / species.
      3. Memory is quantum
        1. The CPU is not quantum, ram I am not sure of, but memory is quantum (I think)
          1. The instant nature of wave collapses implies some form of real instant, read faster than light, tunneling.
            1. Maybe it is in a dimension that time does not exist in.
              1. Think of the brain. It is active at a quantum level reading every point simultaneously.
                1. But it can grab extremely deeply instantly into wrapped dimensions.
                  1. What is impressive is that we ignore all that we are touching that we don’t need, even though we have access.
                  2. I can see Kurzweils point that sequential machines can answer. 
                  3. But I think what is quantum is how we discussing we specifically store long term memory.
                  4. It’s the Proustian madeline cake, a memory that is stored so close to another that it starts a chain reaction.
                  5. But the way we hold every memory simultaneously is not how a normal computer works.
                  6. It depends on humans to even keep an index in our brain of the computer.
                  7. Our ability to hold all our memories in our head simultaneously, while also being able to navigate them simultaneously, is both quantum and potentially a definition of quantum.
      4. North Americans as the lost tribe of Moses
        1. Mormons were onto something with aboriginals being a lost tribe of Israel.
        2. Religious wise, I may be close to a technical non cultural definition of Jewish.
        3. I believe in a monotheistic God: that is Truth.
        4. I believe in Moses, David and Goliath, Noah’s Ark, Cain and Abel, and that there is some funny business with the Garden of Eden.
        5. I like Jesus, but I do not believe he was the messiah.
        6. I like Muhammad, but I see no reason why he is the last prophet.
      5. Biological life is a unique rarity in the universe. Human beings are special, but so is life.
        1. The specialness of biological life on earth.
        2. Human beings were right about our holy place in the universe.
        3. Just wrong that it was just us, it is all biological life.
        4. All life.
        5. In the vacuum of space that is more special than being more than a deer.
        6. Our purpose is uknown.
        7. But something we do know is we are the Weak Force.
        8. And that we have a power to touch outside of our own dimensions.
        9. And the limit of that power in a quantum universe is our own ability to imagine the impact that we can have.

4 February 2021

  • Human beings are the particles of a force of nature that we do not understand yet
  • We, and all biological life, are a part of this force
  • The most fundamental equation is Energy = Energy
  • Human beings guiding principle, at perfection, is about optimizing and unleashing the energy of the universe at its very maximum
  • As time is a dimension, so is whatever our space is in the universe. We are particles, but are also a wave, existing in all time and all place simultaneously. 
    • We exist already in the quantum optimization where the universe achieves 100%, just as we exist in all the dead strands of the world where annihalation wins
    • We exist as a universal brain, a universe that gains consciousness, just as the root of our conscioness and purpose, is something so deep and internal that what we have already achieved, with flowers and man, may have been far harder than the steps to universal awakening
  • The Big Bang may have just been a mild amount of energy in comparison to what the total energy of the universe can contain
  • The solution to the Dirac Equation is that there was existence in the universe before the big bang, so the equation holds. There was something before
  • The purpose and mathematics of our force is energy creation and optimization. Things like Dyson spheres are stepping stones. The direction is something like building the universe into an interconnected neural network of all energy interlinked together, to be at the very maximum. The ultimate and logical purpose is for the total amount of the universes energy to be utilized at exactly 100%.
  • Human beings awakened to our purpose, we can feel the unifying thread of god. But not because we are closer, but because we are farther away. A flower just grows towards the sun. Humans have to ask questions.
  • It is still a choice in each and every human, to follow our purpose truly, or to hide ourselves from the purpose of the universe
  • The potential of the universe as a whole exists in every single building block of the universe. The potential of the universe is a block chain at a subatomic level. The potential of the universe deeply permeates above and below the state of our consciousness.

Internal notes from Cape Town (3 February 2021):

  • Most efficient use of humanity is to increase the production of energy?
  • To Peter:
    • I was thinking that if we’re looking for intelligent life, we may want to look in instead of out.
    • Like human beings exhibit the must fundamental aspects of free will of anything that we’ve found in the universe, but what is the physical nature of free will.
    • Like, is a neuron a part of a human being, or are neural pathways colonies that have an output that effects us, but are actually individual and independent in their autonomy.
    • But then you could also go the other way, and say the entire universe is one living organism.
    • Nailing down what constitutes intelligent life is something I should dig into.
    • Then does it become a universal field?
  • Hive mind.
  • What does it look like when time is taken out as a variable.
  • Neural evolution as a tentacle through the universe.
    • A seed that grows and goes through.
  • Can the universe gain consciousness?
  • Can we turn the entire universe into a single brain.
  • Stars as individual energy points.
  • The force is a neural network?
  • There was something before the big bang
  • We are creating through quantum identification of paths to create a continuing universe.
  • Because survival is in our person.
  • And we are raw neurons in the cosmic brain.
    • That hasn’t been activated yet.
  • We don’t need to know why or if it should exist.
  • But we can impact it, just as surely as any force in the world can.
  • We can be of a power like / of gravity. But we must activate our power.
  • How do we define life?
  • How do we define forces?
  • What is wrong with the augmentation of technology, for example to make a universal neural network?
  • A seed can climb a tree to reach the sun.
  • We should use all the tools that we can ingenuate.
  • We should be working towards unity, not separation.
  • In our beginning there was just one.
  • Energy equals energy.
  • How can we fully exploit the total energy of the universe, to 100 percent?
  • What could we do with this power?
  • Is the big bang not the end, but the beginning?
  • At the big bang it was just matter, it was gravity that began bringing things together.
  • Evolution, gravity, human free will with a holy purpose?
  • There is something quantum in the theory of Blockchain.
  • How every record carries the whole ledger of all transactions.
  • One way for quantum to work is the pre determination of all necessary scenarios to be programmed deep into the most fundamental building blocks of the universe.
  • Then, with entanglement it is not about breaking the speed of light. But about synchronous revelation, and one path going one way, another the other way.
  • But there is only one true path through the universe. 
  • And I think this may be God.
    • (Reminder of inflation and ultimately the speed of light is not a law, but perhaps we first must understand our fishbowl before we look beyond. Or perhaps not.)
  • Could plants evolve to go into space?
  • Earth is becoming a seed.

18 November 2020

is this my ancient mind?
shadows of spirits
weren’t we once rays of light?
particle waves awakened
a force of energy unawakened
searching for purpose
retrograde miniature circles
around a blazing sun
every step a step backwards
every step a step forward
a cosmic purpose
let the dirt know that they will create flowers
let the flowers know that as they grow towards the sun
they create the matter that builds stars
let the stars know they have
that same infinite potential
to become black holes
that permeates human beings
we are in a quantum universe
where everything is possible
and we have in our hands
the entirety of the universe
to direct in any which way
that we choose
//
patterns of electromagentism
invisible to the naked eye
always the same pattern
north pole to south pole
a radiating force
patterns of light
the only thing our eyes see
a particle and a wave
photons firing
the weak force
the strongest force in the universe
but only active
in a one in a trillion chances
or at best once in a billion
the aggregation of diffused fuel
hiding its power
gravity as an outlier
all we can see
is that obviously it is all related
the aether the world works in
mass to gravity equalling the big bang
and its opposite
going through every dimension
the glue of the universe
traveling at the speed of light
bringing mass together
to form black holes
the ever expanding universe
an attempt to escape gravity
but what is gravity?
who is gravity?
the holy spirit
Asha
Dharma
a thread through the universe
can’t you see it?
what tells a flower to point towards the sun
what tells gravity to bring mass together
magnets to attract and repel
light to be the product of heat
heat to be the product of nuclear forces
nuclear forces to be where matter meets anti matter
the weak force stopping mutual annihalation
a universe still in darkness
all existence a point of light
in a sea of non existence
that once existed
we are an arrow from orions bow
knowing nothing more
than that we awakened
to all the forces we are a part of
not understanding
what our own force plays
our sense of determinism
free will
the most true quantum agent
yet discovered in the universe

18 September 2019

From the end of Daedalus

There hasn’t even been a lazy attempt to put it together.
-time is an illusion, its theories limit us
-we are action agents of quantum choosing, we are active in the choice of paths, even if the world fights back
-the Heisenberg uncertainty principle is broader, we change reality by the way we choose to exist
-the universe is fabricated by imagination and does not exist outside of imagination. We create the universe by imagining it
-light is a particle, a wave and an infinite strand, existing as a single moment from creation to its other. Our perception of time is just a coordinate on the river of a universal moment. (Does the same light exist in all dimensions? Is light the linking thread of the universe?)
-a human being empowered is the same as a seed blooming towards the sun or a collection of mass choosing to ignite, become a star, super nova and become a black hole

no more sad dreams (poetry)

no more
sad dreams
fade in
into me
not sure where
we can go
unprotected
the only way I know
catacalysm in theory
breathe me
can we rise
disappear
disappear
beat the madness
beat the rhythym
wandering insular
finding new ways to pray
want to be together
and climb the closest nirvana
want to rise together
temporal
whisps of evolution
can’t we live this dream
this moment
lit universes of dust
love in our hearts
in a love universe
no more bad things
hand in hand
universes gliding
I’m there
I’m there
I’m there
I’m here
Not disappeared
Not the same
Revelation always through a thin layer
Revolution just a matter of mind
Now there is no more past
Who I was
Who we were
Is immutably gone
Woke
Woken
Through the veil
Here we are are
Shall we call this new place home
So scared
Always scared
Always scared
Moving ahead
Not letting scared stop me
Not afraid to be afraid
Running running
Gliding
Breathing
Life filling
The darkness swirling
Hand in hand
Angels or the devil
Who knows
Who cares
In love regardless
Fighting ourselves
Forward
Upsidedown
Backwards
Back into the cracks
Forward as backwards
Backwards as forwards
Back to dust
Dissipating into the sky
Another metamorphosis
No sadness
The universe is a garden
Sadness is happiness
Loss a part of having
Hold me
Hold me
Before we disappear

No Gravity (poetry)

Lost in the ephemereal love of a catch call to action, the here I am for just today. Rain on the roof air in my lungs and love in my heart, a reality here for the second and any point abount to disappear. Is there a light in your eyes? Where is the magic magic, where is the progression, am I still just that sixteen year old who was half way half way, is there a purpose, is nothing a purpose, I don’t know, I’m just dancing in my head, always unsure just not going to let the straw break my back or the meaning of reality make me lose the faerie nature of reality. When I was a tree I felt more honest, but now I look to being the particles of nature again, drifting for infinite, for the tendrils to come together for some cosmic purpose, yet, then, here I am, in my purpose, what is it for what is it for, what is the greater we can do, what does light bring, why is it purpose to be light, what damned good does it mean the entirety of existence but then we are here, how must god feel, he must feel like everyone else, dazzled, and, wondering his own position, what is the what is the oh let the reality be all we have and I am not sure not sure but I am here and may I be true and as a soldier of the universe may I follow the purpose of a greater reality.

Remain (poetry)

Feelings of lost time
Always the feeling of the future
But when does that disappear
Life as a graph
In a retrospective future
There are only so many permutations
What would be the highlights
Of my future self

Ahhhhhh
The allure of reinvention
This purmatation is without closure
Is it time to move or to keep resisting
What does the finite nature of life dictate

Sincerely unsure
Sincerely lost
A trend calcified into a law
Lost as a reason of being
Lost as a way of life
Sitting with my father on a swing set
“I always hoped to have achieved more”
Is our potential to continue achieving not universal?
Isn’t it?

Ring a round the rosy, pocket full of posies
A choo! A choo! We all fall down.

But here we are
Not in the darkest light
Or the lightest light
Just a rumination
Still infinite
Still moments untamed
Wrapped dimensions
And meaning perhaps something
Maybe not ours to understand

What does the speed of light mean?
What does the mathematical probability of quantum really mean?
Why is light both a particle and a wave?
How is an electron and a photon related?
Are we primitive, who is carrying the torch?

Wanting wanting
Wanting wanting
Wasting wasting
Wasting

My feet still good
Heart still beating
Still free
Free as I have ever been
Choices at a finger tip
Other mountains to climb
Dimensions to disappear into
Yet still this consistent reality
Still the same questions unanswered
A candle failing to illuminate
Yet, still casting light
Still a choice
And still, with every touch of a keyboard
A choice to stay
And understand
If there is such a thing as progress

If A Relatively Competent General Wanted to Conquer the Democratic Republic of the Congo

There is no power in the Congo, it is an empty throne that no one really wants, so all aspects of a state are just facade. There is no correlative, perhaps Somalia, but it is different.
You do not need to conquer the DRC, you need to control the June 31 Boulevard in Kinshasa.


The Belgians structured the road for this purpose, it is the choke point of the entire DRC. It is the river of the city. Who ever controls this boulevard controls Kinshasa, whoever controls Kinshasa wears the crown of the DRC, since it’s a meaningless title.


I would think an ideal number of soldiers to hold it would be around 500 ace (read disciplined) troops with armoured carriers, but it could be done with a fraction, re: Rwanda invasion. Kagame is a great general, but he just highlights the complete lack of any form of real soldier power. 


Note that every single thing in the DRC is for sale, 100 million dollar demands can be negotiated with the right tact (read respect and win/win perspective) down to a beer and 1,000 CDF.
Note that there are no bullets with most soldiers, they like to say Kabila keeps them, my personal hypothesis is they have been sold.


I would think a well branded revolution could succeed quite easily, perhaps incorporate the existing senate as a group of advisers with a permanent salary.


Congo feeds off of money changing hands, it is an extractionary economy that does not build value. This has to change. I would propose linking all bribes to a vehicle that is tied to long term success in the economy, so that powers that be are motivated to see the country succeed. I would also propose an immediate implementation of a clever universal basic income in a digital currency that expires and can’t leave Congo. Someone from MIT could figure it out. Finally I would propose throwing out the entire existing constitution, which is unrepareable.
The most clean path to a better Congo would be a 1789 style French revolution, but this would have a high cost of lives lost so this would be the key thing to try to nudge so that the the revolutionary burning of the existing paradigm is cleanly swept away with a minimal loss of human lives.


Note that a revolution will likely happen at some point, somewhere between today and in 100 years, revolution is the only way I see the DRC getting the fresh start it needs. Plausibly the country is conquered a dozen times by internal and external parties along the way, but I don’t see this as changing the status quo, the rationale of pillage is just too tempting, any messiah will find themselves on a cross. It would be good for the revolution to be structured to be sooner rather than later to get it over with; it would be good to be clever in how it’s done so there is a minimum loss of life; it would be good for there to be extremely concrete plans for what the goals of the revolution are and what would be the step by step roll out to transform the Democratic Republic of the Congo into a place where its citizens get the opportunity to live empowered lives.

New Years Eve at Cote Sauvage (poetry)

ahhh lost scared scared lost
eyes open is this death
don’t sleep don’t sleep fight sleep never sleep
where where where
shake it off, reality
where in my dream am I right now
get out get out of me head
again and again the devil makes himself known
flee fly run away run away
where is the running to
the chase is all there is
flee flee
into a greater darkness
into the greater darkness
survival for another moment
just stay ahead just stay ahead
push push push
fly fly fly
an ant being stepped on
a crab being torn apart
birds preying from the sky
head down run run
every moment no peace
this is life this is life this if life
for the moment for all the moments

and da rage sickness
bleedin in bleedin out
we’s be
oh where’s be
oh what’s dis
ca va
comme ca
aint we sposed to
lazin in da sun
da nuthin da nuthin
a nuda try
a nuda time
Let me stare deeply into the darkness
Can I communicate me exhaustion
Here I am today, would you like to share a moment?
What are the questions asked?
Well, ahem, ahem
Exhaustion, are we both ready?

dammit wasn’t I supposed to be beyond?
Can I restart?
Have a refresh on this ritualization?
Yes, we stare into existence together?
Having the hope, the hope.
A hypothesis, we are the heros.
A belief, in ourselves.
Fragile, if we let ourselves be.
Fragile, if we let ourselves be.
Fragile, find the way through.
Strength, can we find the way through.
What is the purpose of this moment now
Are we at the beginning, the middle, or the end.
Oh, ca va, the flying from A to B
Patter patter
Brrrrrrr Brrrrrrr
I don’t see you
Was a sometime ago a something something
Worse better doesn’t make a damned difference
Sloppy meanderings,
Travails bowing to gravity,
Not give much of a fuck,
To be honest,
In the zone zone
Not the good zone
But let me blow
Systematic wandering
Oh, oh, oh

And here I am again
Contemplating the same revolutions
Stringing together words connected by sadness
Ca va, ca va
But, sadness is not the real emotion
A moment by the sea
Waves fill the air
I don’t know, I don’t know
I don’t know, I don’t know
Peace, or an attempt
War, or to fight against
Waves fill the air
Waves fill the air
Love in the world
Love in the air
Embrace it, as a choice
May I be the only real version of myself
That I can be
May these repetitions be an embrace
I am not, the one I should be
But I am
Today, I am
And with a moment, and the smell of salt
With waves filling the air
And war in my heart
Another day
Another day

still forward (poetry)

Deja vu again
Is it here again
Can I hear it again
Will I lose it again
Where has it gone
slipping through my fingers
The infinites go backwards
Can I remember
Was it there
Was it fresh
Was it the same
Where has it gone?

ta da ta da ta da ta da
the empty wasteland
listening to the song bird
sing sweet sing nothing
time pushing into the future
still into the future
always into the future
still not sure for why
still floating to float
staring ahead
all those lost thoughts lost
burning the circuits of my brain
will the highs come again
what is this addiction?
tell me life is magical
hold me like a child
I am so cold and want to be warm
I never asked for this what is given to me
all I want is the comfort of faith
to know to know
empty heart
bleached mind
cold cold
cold cold
the only burning I have
the fire with no heat
rage in stasis
lightning flashes
in an uncontrolled where
force it
understand it
over the hill, old man
but who am I to judge infinite
we revel and revolve
the times that were past
they come again
in some manifestation
still dreaming
just not sure where they come from
is all of this worth something
our purpose our purpose
I’m trying to dream
I’m trying to build
Looking for shoulders to stand on
Just stand alone
frail and fucked
weak and stupid
blessed and unblessed
standing just to stand
imperfect
imperfect
imperfect
was this who I was destined to be?
or fuck destiny
in a quantum world
who knows where the story goes
let me ride my roller coaster
it isn’t over yet
maybe soon
maybe never
but for today, there is just today
just today
just today
ride ride ride
fly glide
burn burn
can I fly can I fly

this feels over
but the energy still remains
it could be a new writing
but then I’m not sure
what the words that come out of my fingers
are going to look like
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in a new place
different than the old place
always moving forward
revolution normalized
the drugs don’t work
but all these things
they must be linked togethor
otherwise why have I lived it
what is the common thread
why did I hear all those stories
sirens out the window
a rainy day
fear in the air
fear in my heart
am I good enough
is this too much
whistles
is this the new normal
hubris
arrogant
the rock I break on
but haven’t I been trying to break myself for a lifetime
I have never won
but have never broken
let one or the other happen
equal and opposite reaction
will my breaking be my winning
or my winning my breaking
forward forward
may the wave not breach
until we are ready to come into shore
purpose in everything
purpose in everything
purpose in everything
I don’t know my purpose
but I know purpose is the aether
I don’t know if it is my purpose to know my purpose
but if I am brave enough
and if I am strong enough
I will live my purpose
I will live my purpose

just caught in a moment in time
this moment
sunday afternoon in the rain
the apartment is fine
the atmosphere is the other
old pizza for my lunch at 6:00pm
glass of wine
moving forward
moving forward
every second every second moving forward
face getting old
grey hairs
I was a child I was a child
that was my moment
this is my moment now
the past did exist
the future doesn’t but will
will it always be one dimensional direction
is memory time travel
what is the first sunny day that comes to mind
a brief heat in Texas
or was that a photograph
or have I combined the two
I know there was a smell
a smell I could recognize today
it would make me breathe deep
like being on the ferry to Nanaimo after years away
and the cold cold cold ocean keeping the spray down and the wind up
and it cut me cut me and oh it cut me
ca va ca va ca va

still going onwards
still going onwards
still going onwards
still going onwards
hold your nerve hold your nerve hold your nerve hold your nerve
don’t think of what could have been
the fact you are is it’s own revelation
anything can happen and will happen
in it’s own time
in it’s own dimension
exist here and now
and let’s be dropped into this moment
this random moment
out of all the moments
and from here here
where I never expected to be
didn’t know to dream about
or to fear
from this very spot
may I do my best
may I be my best
may I be true to myself
here, or anywhere
and if that is all I have
than even if it is not enough
may I be my best
may I be truth
may I be true
this moment