just a quick memory of this moment
stone sage and sailor
zipline in the backyard of that blue house
bright blue with red insides
video games and innocence
this isn’t the life dreamed of
but maybe it should be
a flash and a fade
a flash with a hint of fate
a flash and a fade
is that all that my life has been
all sparks
so much attempt at illumination
so much beauty seen in the shadows
all flash
and just a fade
it’s sunny
so it’s perfect
disappearing and forever
always disappearing and forever
always that prayer for something bigger
the quest towards the absolute
or the awe at those mysteries
what about something tangible
what about not worshiping the wall
or failing to break through it
instead there is just the quest for the quiet noble
to build it slowly
spend a life on it
brick by brick
and the finished product
whatever it is
will be yours
be better than yourself
trying to move forward
I don’t want to talk about love
there has to be a feeling above
that means morr than all this fluff
but life is beating me rough
maybe all this shit can get stuffed
another punch to the face
by a girl who thinks I’m a disgrace
and now look at me, I’m lowered
sitting bangin keys at the table
wanna pretend my life is a fable
wondering where my friends have gone
they treat me like I don’t belong
I guess the joke can be on them
cause I don’t really give a damn
even though my brain seems slammed
let me say the word bliss
tomorrow is difficult
yesterday a memory
but right now, in all it’s imperfect decadence
it is ok
let us even say it is perfect
I am unsure of the future
I am unsure of the past
I am unsure of today
but let this today mean something
are we not happy